Shitty moods = Shitty nights

I'm frustrated, I'm confused, I'm exhausted, I'm lonely, I'm homesick, I'm crabby, I'm bored, and a whole bunch of other shit...
I've been in the weirdest mood for probably about a week. I'm moody and I've been worrying about the dumbest things nonstop. I haven't been getting sleep because I lay there thinking and being nervous about everything and I'm constantly dragging because of that. I haven't been able to concentrate on anything.I know that I always complain about guys, but honestly I don't get them at all. WHY CAN'T GUYS JUST TELL US WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON IN THEIR HEADS?! If I'm wasting my time, just tell me and it would make my life ten times easier because at least I could start moving on. I wouldn't even be a bitch about it if a guy was just completely straight with me. I would much rather have a guy tell me the truth than keep me guessing and wondering and worrying.I don't want to sound like a whiney bitch who always just talks about how I can't get a guy, but it really makes me question myself sometimes. What's wrong with me that guys always go running away? What do other girls have that I don't? What do I do wrong everytime I like someone? Am I unlovable? And I don't just mean by friends - I mean by a guy. Will I ever be able to find a guy who loves me, who wants to hang out with me all the time, who wants to act stupid and lay around and go out with me? Will I be able to find someone who I can trust, who can trust me, who can confide in me, who can be proud to call me his girlfriend? As of right now, things seem pretty damn hopeless. I dont want anyone's sympathy. In fact, that's the last thing I want. I just want a good guy. Apparently that's too much to ask for though....